theonetheonly

abbey

2005-03-03T22:55:54Z

well, me and abbey broke up..... we went out for 9 months..... all i wanna do is show that she will have a great time with me..... ive been crying non stop when im at home..... she gave me a picture of us when we went out too iron river too a creek and hiked..... i had too put it away cus all i do is cry when i look at it.... i think she broke up cus at the moment she thinks that she doenst want too have a relationship in college when i go.... but i just wanna go out with ehr and enjoy everything for right now.... and not worry about the future.... ive lost my best friend....abbey is my first true love and i want it too stay that way.... i dont know what i can doo too change it....we dont even talk that much.... i want too call her but i cant.... whatever i do i get upset and cry over....i wish right now was jus like a lil break then wed be back together.... her birthday is april 14..... our 10 month would of been march 16..... ill prolly not even wanna live when these dates hit.... i cant get over her.... shes my best friend and i just wanna fix things.... but she dont want me too call for a while.... while she was thinkin about too stay or not.... she said not too call..... but my grandpa got alot worse in the hospital and i was histerical.... i didnt know who else too talk too so i called her cus i love her and shes my best friend.... but she didnt wnat that..... and i ruined everything by being upset about my grandpa.... then seh says i dont trust her.... but i do..... i trust her more then i can ttrust any1..... all i do is wanna fix us..... ive never been so upset in my life..... i really have no reason too live.... my life has gone too shit.... i have nothing too look forward too when ig et out of bed..... she was so beautiful yesterday.... i just looked at her all hour in chemistry.... she was the most beautiful thing ive ever seen.....her bandana in her hair.... her outer sweater and under shirt.... she was so beautiful.... and that beauty isnt for me anymore.... my life is just terrible.... i dont know what too do.... i wish she would take me back.... id do anything.....i would seriously give up anything just too have her and hug and kiss...... the first time it rains im prolly gonna be histerical..... all i wanted too do was kiss her in the rain since the snow came........then for prom she no longer wanted too go wtih me...then liz did so i figured id feel better.... but i feel worse.... i feel like ive betrayed her..... cus i have too go with her... when seh told me too.... but she didnt really want me too i know it.... cus i wanna go with her.... i wanna spend my whole life with her or t least one more day.... one more day with her would just make me happy.... to be with the abbey that i fell in love with and care for.... that would be so great..... i trust her so much.... i hope she doesnt start doing things with other guys like kissing.... cus i think she wants too with jason ebertsche.... i dont know.... i wanna still goo too ring 2 with her... me and pirlot are suppose too go when it comes out..... ahh its amazing how ur life is wonderful one week and gone too shit the next..... i dont know waht im gonna do.... i just loved it so m uch

7 months

2004-12-16T22:45:16Z

today is 7 months for me and abbey... im quite happy today.... shes in iron river skiing for the ski team.... i really want to tlak too her.... i had a algebra 2 test today... didnt finish it but did good prolly... im really tired... i went too izzo and just squated and ran... i squatted a 10 set of 135, 8 set of 165, 6 set of 205, and a 5 set of 245... then i ran a mile on tread mill.... im really tired now hahaha actually extremely tired... and i have a stomach ache.... oh well.....

stuff

2004-12-15T03:42:30Z

im going too california december 27 till january 5th..... right now im kinda sad cus me n ab arent hanging out for a while and our 7 month is thursday.... so yeah.... im kinda sad haha i dunno why... kinda cus i wish abbey would tell me she loves me more like i tell her.... im just stupid like that ohh well.... our bball team won tonight... i went to that.... i went too izzo came home n slept till like 6 30 then went too the game it was fun

gah

2004-12-03T04:32:15Z

its been awhile since ive wrote in ehre.... footballs over.... been lifting..... mostly lifting n hanging with abbey lately.... things with abbey i think are always bad.... but she has skiing and school..... n i just feel like her feelings have changed towards me.... hahaha... its been alot of months.... another one this december 16..... dance next weekend.... hanging with abbey friday... chad saturday ithink who knows... oh well

lately

2004-10-29T00:36:56Z

ok it has been a while since my last post..... we play ishpeming tommorow in football..... first round of playoffs..... i have too take a 0 on a test in u.s. history.... my mom n dad are going to court over child support money soon.... my mom yells at me for no reason.... my grandpa is getting sick.... grades suck.....me n abbey are doing good at the moment.... a few problems but nothing big..... my face is all scraped up from chartier falling on my face.... im gonna change teh way im with abbey so i stop making her upset or feeling bad

hollaback

2004-09-27T01:50:54Z

lets see..... i woke up.....watched football.... then abbey called.... she wanted too do something too get away from her aunts cus it was boring... so we hung out... went too walmart.... it was fun... then they invited me too eat.... so i did... it was fun... then came home and have been chilling ever since..... i still feel bad about thursday.... everything is fine but i still messed up... n i ruined us studying for the year... i was so excited for this school year cus i thought itd be fun cus that we could help eachother n chem and i had her too help me in spanish.... but i ruined that.... now i cant wait till this year is over... im broed.... im just watching football right now... cus im that cool

gah

2004-09-25T03:40:33Z

i cant figure this stupid site out im tring too update but my computers gay.... but anways. i fucked up last night... i yelled at her... she dont deserve it.... shes my best friend and i love her.... i just wanna die for how i treated her.... i cried all last night over it.... i dunno i feel like ive ruined the best thing going in my life.... who knows.... i dont know she says everything is okay but i just feel like shes going too break up with me over it gahhhhh i dont know..... football game tonoight we won 42-14... i played like shit cus im sick.... todays my dads birthday but didnt get a chanfce too call him so i kinda feel bad... but i feel way worse over abbey.... i suck

i suck at life

2004-09-25T03:36:21Z

gah me n abbey got into an arguement last night..... wanst really an argument me being a stupid fuck..... i yelled at her for no reason she was just tring too help and i just coudlnt hold in my anger i dont know cus id idnt want her too feel like it was her falt.... and yeah.... i fucked up.... then i told her my view on things have changed..... i was just being stupid cuase she wasnt talking too me and im a stupid stupid stupid idiot.... gahhh.... i just wanna die..... about how i treated her.... i suck at life.... gah.... i hope we stay together i love her.... gah...

gah

2004-09-25T03:33:24Z

well i screwed up...... i yelled at abbey or stupid stuff.... i shuodlnt of.... i may have screwed up the greatest thing going in my life.... i dont know..... she says everything is okay.... then i told her that my view on things had changed n she thought i was going too rbeak up with her... thats teh last thing id want too do.... shes the greatest person alive and my best friend and i love her... i just wanted too die last night and earlier today.... but i feel better now cus i think things will be fine... hopefully they will be

yea...

2004-09-09T01:48:49Z

lately i just feel sad and frustrated... lately ive just been worrying about me n abbey.... i feel like something bad will happen that will ruin everything... i dont know why... just been paranoid and i dont want everything to be ruined cus i just feel like everything is great when im with her... shes like my best friend and i just worry so much lately... i dont know... yeah.... i just worry too mcuh

holla

2004-09-06T04:43:21Z

today i just relaxed.... hung out with abbey tonight... it was alot of fun.... shes alot of fun too hang out with... i wish school hasnt started cus we can only hang out on the weekends pretty much... homecoming in like 2 weeks... shall be fun

hmm

2004-09-05T01:05:48Z

last ngiht we played gwynn in football... we won 45-0... i had about 6 tackles in teh game.... i played defensive tackle and cornerback.... it was fun... im bored today.... abbeys working andhanigng out with betsy today.. she got her camera so thats cool.... i have no money or gas so im just chillin at home for right now.... im broke... tommroow abbey works again then has too do a thing at the fair tommorow.... sucks cus i wanan hang out but hopefully on monday... ill prolly just stay at home tommroow till i find a way too get money

bored

2004-09-01T02:21:27Z

im bored takling too ppl on msn..

football was interesting today...

we play gwynn on friday...

its parents night...

im going too lunch with abbey tommorow i think...

then were doing something thursday night and possibly something after friday's game sot hat will be fun im excited for that...

i was listening too music just now and the song i dont wanna know came on by mario winams and i was just like wow... reminds me of things right now in my life... but im getting over it

yawn....

2004-08-30T23:50:02Z

well i woke up today and i felt shitty.... i have every1 once n a while... i just feel like im gonna break down at times... but i'm good now... talked too abbey after i woke up... made her upset as usual.... went too henrys too bring him too football.... saw tim driving for the first time alone... coming back from jaime's... im happy for him...and henry has a thing with liz now... cus i went too shainnas at like 3:30 last night and interupted them... he told me funny stuff about it today ha... then went too football.... we ewre lectured too have a good practice... but we didnt...everyone was screwing up as usual... it sucked.... i hid so i didnt have too play defense cause i was tired... butsic was pissed cus he had too go in for me... i ended up going in at outside linebacker cus labarge is a pussy... im really tired... abbey is at lifting right now... shes getting all sweaty n stuff... yum.. haha... i wanted too see her tonight but she had lifting but thats okay... i went too walmart too buy school supplies... i saw cooks dad there while i picked shit out... i did the lil self checkout... i dominated... i saw chad and glen on teh way out... chad was saying how ive lost weight haha... i've been getting that alot lately... then driving back i saw jessica anders... i haven't hung out with her or talked too her all summer... i feel bad cause her grandma died this summer and i went too the hospital too go see her grandma with her...then i went too the city dump and got rid of junk from my moms plants... lots of plants and grass.. i don't know what im going too do tonight... just relax prolly... i'm going too lunch with abbey tomororow... that should be fun... i feel bad for making abbey upset today but i will make it up too her... we have chemistry together so that should be fun..

so anyways... im about too eat... so holllaback

yeah....

2004-08-30T04:59:06Z

well.... abbey said i should start a journal so wat the hey maybe i will... im currently talking too abbey and watching espn.... today me n abbey went too piers gorge and went too my house n chilled.... i brought her home and challenged her too a bball game but she got scurred too play me and insisted on going too husings house for baseball so i did... we talked about football and eat sum pizza... we then watched teh little league world series... good game.... i then called abbey and went over there too play bball.... we didnt cus her light outside went out and it was dark... so we improvised and salsa danced just goofed around... then went inside and just layed n watched tv.... it was a fun time... she makes me very happy all the time pretty much...